From puffy-eyed, day after the election me 

Today has been emotional and hard. I wonder how it has been for you. I wonder how we can all work together to heal  our broken country. I am ready to try...

I just went for a long walk in my neighborhood. The resident Poplar, Ash and Maple trees are showing off their reds, oranges, and yellows. I have been grieving over the election results, and I needed their company. I love the way they look, lit from the inside. I need to kindle my light again too. 
  
I found comfort in their company. They are gorgeous and transforming. The rain tapped a gentle rhythm on my umbrella, and it smelled like the moment. November is a dear friend, and she soothed me today.
  
I also found comfort in the hugs and conversations I shared with stranger women in the grocery store, all of us on the hunt for comfort food, and in the phone calls and emails from friends who knew I would be distraught. There was much to be grateful for today, even in the midst of sorrow and fear. 
  
Today, my eyes are puffy from crying and lack of sleep, but tomorrow I will do what I can to move forward. I don’t know what that will look like yet, but tomorrow I will dry my tears and look to the future. I will do my best to heal my little piece of the world. 
  
What has today been like for you?
(If you leave a comment, please check back. I always respond.)

Photo and recording are from my walk in the November rain. I thought you might find them soothing too...

16 comments

  • Jayne Tamburello

    Jayne Tamburello Rehoboth Beach, DE

    Rather than shock and awe, it was 'shock and oh no'. My heart immediately sank at the prospect of this man (and his wife) becoming president and first lady. But rather than worrying, I meditated. And, I decided it was the right day to launch my new website www.aumshantea.com. I have been working on this project for a long time because I believe there is a need for both spiritual and emotional support in the world--especially now!

    Rather than shock and awe, it was 'shock and oh no'. My heart immediately sank at the prospect of this man (and his wife) becoming president and first lady. But rather than worrying, I meditated. And, I decided it was the right day to launch my new website www.aumshantea.com. I have been working on this project for a long time because I believe there is a need for both spiritual and emotional support in the world--especially now!

  • Karen DeHaven

    Karen DeHaven Sellersville

    Shocked. Weepy. Like grieving a corpseless death. I weep for the family that walks and stalks behind DT in fear. I weep for his flinching your son during the speech last night. I weep for my ears having to hear lie after lie and not having a way to confront the lies. Yes - I want comfort food ... but I'm sick from allergies and most comfort food is white and off diet during this recovery period. I want to hear from Obama or Michelle and find a guide along this darkened path. Our air. Our children. Our global economy. And I resent the violence and hate we have to continue to witness and bear the brunt of for years to come. I pray for Social Revolution - pressing against the machine that is about to lurch forward into our lives. I want solace ... sanctuary. And I want my curiosity back. But today - I just feel shock.

    Shocked. Weepy. Like grieving a corpseless death.

    I weep for the family that walks and stalks behind DT in fear. I weep for his flinching your son during the speech last night. I weep for my ears having to hear lie after lie and not having a way to confront the lies.

    Yes - I want comfort food ... but I'm sick from allergies and most comfort food is white and off diet during this recovery period.

    I want to hear from Obama or Michelle and find a guide along this darkened path.
    Our air. Our children. Our global economy.

    And I resent the violence and hate we have to continue to witness and bear the brunt of for years to come.
    I pray for Social Revolution - pressing against the machine that is about to lurch forward into our lives.

    I want solace ... sanctuary. And I want my curiosity back.
    But today - I just feel shock.

  • Denise

    Denise

    Hi Jayne. I like that you used this as an opportunity to do something good! I look forward to following along. FYI, your link didn't work for me. Thanks for being part of the conversation...

    Hi Jayne. I like that you used this as an opportunity to do something good! I look forward to following along. FYI, your link didn't work for me. Thanks for being part of the conversation...

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hi Karen, I relate with all of what you said. I feel it too. It is heartbreaking, frightening, and yes, shocking. I keep thinking about the Obamas too. I feel so sad to lose them. I hope they will stay involved. Their guidance would be powerfully helpful. I miss them already. I also am choosing to believe in the power of all of the good people in our country in both parties. We need to stay vigilant. I believe we will have a social revolution. Thanks for your comment. It is appreciated. Sending a hug...

    Hi Karen, I relate with all of what you said. I feel it too. It is heartbreaking, frightening, and yes, shocking. I keep thinking about the Obamas too. I feel so sad to lose them. I hope they will stay involved. Their guidance would be powerfully helpful. I miss them already. I also am choosing to believe in the power of all of the good people in our country in both parties. We need to stay vigilant. I believe we will have a social revolution. Thanks for your comment. It is appreciated. Sending a hug...

  • Christine winchester

    Christine winchester Norristown

    Today I slept in, worked from home, and I oscillated between waves of terror, numbness and resolve. The rain made the day 10x worse. I looked at Facebook a lot and the TV just a little. I cocooned, skipping a much needed shower, a class at the office, and an exercise class. And by 6pm, I just wanted to be with my husband and daughter, so after we had a simple dinner, and briefly shared about our activities and feelings of the day, we played a board game, laughing with each other, happy to be together, escaping the doom and gloom.

    Today I slept in, worked from home, and I oscillated between waves of terror, numbness and resolve. The rain made the day 10x worse. I looked at Facebook a lot and the TV just a little. I cocooned, skipping a much needed shower, a class at the office, and an exercise class. And by 6pm, I just wanted to be with my husband and daughter, so after we had a simple dinner, and briefly shared about our activities and feelings of the day, we played a board game, laughing with each other, happy to be together, escaping the doom and gloom.

  • Cheryl H.

    Cheryl H. Fort Worth, TX

    I was prepared to suck it up which ever one was to win. As you know I voted my conscience which meant I did not vote for Trump or Clinton. The truth is the majority spoke. That is what this country is supposed to be about. No man, no president, congressman, etc., is an island unto himself. Use this as a launching pad to get more involved in YOUR government. Your voice can still be heard and you can still make a difference. Make your representatives represent YOU. It isn't about one man getting in there and doing whatever he wants to do. There are checks and balances. Make sure that happens.

    I was prepared to suck it up which ever one was to win. As you know I voted my conscience which meant I did not vote for Trump or Clinton. The truth is the majority spoke. That is what this country is supposed to be about. No man, no president, congressman, etc., is an island unto himself. Use this as a launching pad to get more involved in YOUR government. Your voice can still be heard and you can still make a difference. Make your representatives represent YOU. It isn't about one man getting in there and doing whatever he wants to do. There are checks and balances. Make sure that happens.

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hi Christine. It's good to hear from you. It sounds like our internal landscape was much the same yesterday. It was a hard day. I understand the difficulty getting even the routine things done. I am glad you found comfort in your family. That is treasure! Sending my best to you. Onward together...

    Hi Christine. It's good to hear from you. It sounds like our internal landscape was much the same yesterday. It was a hard day. I understand the difficulty getting even the routine things done. I am glad you found comfort in your family. That is treasure! Sending my best to you. Onward together...

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hi Cheryl. Thanks for joining the conversation. Actually, the majority didn't speak. Hillary won the popular vote, and lost the election, just like Al Gore did. I am, and will continue to be, an involved citizen, and I am heartbroken about where we are standing today. I don't understand how not voting for someone who can actually win, equals voting your conscience. I don't understand how that can be helpful. We are going to have to respectfully agree to disagree on that one. Thank you for sharing your point of view. It is much appreciated. We need different points of view in the conversation if we are going to understand and honor each other in this country and move on together.

    Hi Cheryl. Thanks for joining the conversation. Actually, the majority didn't speak. Hillary won the popular vote, and lost the election, just like Al Gore did. I am, and will continue to be, an involved citizen, and I am heartbroken about where we are standing today. I don't understand how not voting for someone who can actually win, equals voting your conscience. I don't understand how that can be helpful. We are going to have to respectfully agree to disagree on that one. Thank you for sharing your point of view. It is much appreciated. We need different points of view in the conversation if we are going to understand and honor each other in this country and move on together.

  • alisa

    alisa

    Thanks for sharing this post, Denise. I too am gut-punched sick with dread and horror about the "election" of He-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named. I've been finding comfort in nature too... thought you might appreciate this poem right now as much as I do! Peace out, girl scout... xo The Peace of Wild Things When despair for the world grows in me and I wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be, I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds. I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethought of grief. I come into the presence of still water. And I feel above me the day-blind stars waiting with their light. For a time I rest in the grace of the world, and am free. - Wendell Berry

    Thanks for sharing this post, Denise. I too am gut-punched sick with dread and horror about the "election" of He-Who-Shall-Not-Be-Named. I've been finding comfort in nature too... thought you might appreciate this poem right now as much as I do! Peace out, girl scout... xo

    The Peace of Wild Things

    When despair for the world grows in me
    and I wake in the night at the least sound
    in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,
    I go and lie down where the wood drake
    rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.
    I come into the peace of wild things
    who do not tax their lives with forethought
    of grief. I come into the presence of still water.
    And I feel above me the day-blind stars
    waiting with their light. For a time
    I rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
    - Wendell Berry

  • Sarah

    Sarah New York

    Hi Denise, thank you so much for your sharing and I love your wonderful music. I think this may surprise everyone and turn into a blessing for us. The President elect has such a wonderful family, and has created tens of thousands of careers for people that work for him, and they seem to love him and be very loyal and he to them. He seems to love the country and wants to protect it, and so many of us want the country to be safe and thrive economically. Thank God he is not a politician, but has created jobs and improved the lives of people. It is a blessing that he has exposed the dishonest media that tries to manipulate all of us with distorted information. Maybe the country needs a strong leader who will enforce immigration laws (when did breaking the law become spiritually virtuous?), and bring jobs back to our country for the ninety million out of work. I love Hillary, but honestly, If you or I secretly took US Classified materials onto a private computer for years, and then deleted thousands of them when being investigated by the FBI - we know that you or I or anyone would be prosecuted, so to overlook all this... I think it may be a blessing that the people finally said enough to corruption. This has been an emotionally exhausting time, but I think we can give thanks to God that some one will stand up for American citizens, expand prosperity and create new jobs, and protect us and our families to help us safely pursue our dreams. I read that his tax plan will bring back a surge of companies back to the US which can open up near inner cities and help revive those areas. I feel like it's Morning in America... I think great things are ahead for all of us... But I agree, it has been emotionally exhausting. The miracle of America... and it's great people...

    Hi Denise, thank you so much for your sharing and I love your wonderful music.

    I think this may surprise everyone and turn into a blessing for us. The President elect has such
    a wonderful family, and has created tens of thousands of careers for people that work for him, and they
    seem to love him and be very loyal and he to them. He seems to love the country and wants to protect it, and so many of us want the country to be safe and thrive economically. Thank God he is not a politician, but has created jobs and improved the lives of people. It is a blessing that he has exposed the dishonest media
    that tries to manipulate all of us with distorted information. Maybe the country needs a strong leader who
    will enforce immigration laws (when did breaking the law become spiritually virtuous?), and bring jobs
    back to our country for the ninety million out of work. I love Hillary, but honestly, If you or I secretly took
    US Classified materials onto a private computer for years, and then deleted thousands of them when being
    investigated by the FBI - we know that you or I or anyone would be prosecuted, so to overlook all this...
    I think it may be a blessing that the people finally said enough to corruption.
    This has been an emotionally exhausting time, but I think we can give thanks to God that some one
    will stand up for American citizens, expand prosperity and create new jobs, and protect us and our families
    to help us safely pursue our dreams.

    I read that his tax plan will bring back a surge of companies back to the US which can open up near
    inner cities and help revive those areas.

    I feel like it's Morning in America... I think great things are ahead for all of us...
    But I agree, it has been emotionally exhausting. The miracle of America... and it's great people...

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hey Alisa! That poem is gorgeous. Thank you for sharing it. It has been a hard few days. Nature and music are my biggest comforts. I may just have to bring my guitar into the woods... Thanks for stopping by. I love when you visit.

    Hey Alisa! That poem is gorgeous. Thank you for sharing it. It has been a hard few days. Nature and music are my biggest comforts. I may just have to bring my guitar into the woods... Thanks for stopping by. I love when you visit.

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Greetings Sarah. Thank you for your comment and for your kind words about my music. I hope you are right about our President Elect. I would love for that to be who he is and what he will bring to our country. My experience of him has been so different from what you describe. It is like two completely different people. May your version of him be what we see going forward. I wish us all healing and progress.

    Greetings Sarah. Thank you for your comment and for your kind words about my music. I hope you are right about our President Elect. I would love for that to be who he is and what he will bring to our country. My experience of him has been so different from what you describe. It is like two completely different people. May your version of him be what we see going forward. I wish us all healing and progress.

  • harry

    harry maine

    i remain in a state of disbelief. Like the team just lost cuz the other team made a lucky shot from 50 feet away. part of me has no hope. there is a storm coming. a big storm. it will change the landscape. instead of denying, trying to 'make' myself feel good; i will begin the steady task of getting involved... in the 2018 Senate races cuz we can take back enough seats to hold at least one of the 4 areas of governing. Getting involved in the dialogue around the issues that matter to my community. If i focus on dealing with the symptom of my discomfort i may miss an opportunity to deal with the disease itself. Yes, i feel awful; but as Elizabeth Warren said, "spend the time you need to grieve but make it quick. then get back in the fight or all that we have worked for will disappear." Right now i see no way to make the upcoming storm go away. so i must prepare to clean-up the mess when the storm is over no matter how badly ravaged the landscape may be. The electoral college votes officially in December. that is the first opportunity to influence real change. if we get involved in that process we may be able to influence the outcome. if we dont remain involved, we may allow history to repeat itself (January 1933). this week was not just emotionally difficult, it was a warning, an omen, a wake-up call. whoever has the strength must begin to get out the vote for 2018 Government positions. it is the ONLY way to stop or slow down the storm

    i remain in a state of disbelief. Like the team just lost cuz the other team made a lucky shot from 50 feet away. part of me has no hope. there is a storm coming. a big storm. it will change the landscape. instead of denying, trying to 'make' myself feel good; i will begin the steady task of getting involved... in the 2018 Senate races cuz we can take back enough seats to hold at least one of the 4 areas of governing. Getting involved in the dialogue around the issues that matter to my community. If i focus on dealing with the symptom of my discomfort i may miss an opportunity to deal with the disease itself. Yes, i feel awful; but as Elizabeth Warren said, "spend the time you need to grieve but make it quick. then get back in the fight or all that we have worked for will disappear." Right now i see no way to make the upcoming storm go away. so i must prepare to clean-up the mess when the storm is over no matter how badly ravaged the landscape may be. The electoral college votes officially in December. that is the first opportunity to influence real change. if we get involved in that process we may be able to influence the outcome. if we dont remain involved, we may allow history to repeat itself (January 1933). this week was not just emotionally difficult, it was a warning, an omen, a wake-up call. whoever has the strength must begin to get out the vote for 2018 Government positions. it is the ONLY way to stop or slow down the storm

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hi Harry. You are right. We need to look to 2018. I agree with everything you said. It is surreal and scary, and we need to be involved. Thanks for being involved here. I always appreciate your thoughtful comments.

    Hi Harry. You are right. We need to look to 2018. I agree with everything you said. It is surreal and scary, and we need to be involved. Thanks for being involved here. I always appreciate your thoughtful comments.

  • Chris

    Chris Albany, NY

    Hey Denise, It has been nearly a week, and I'm still feeling like a zombie. I actually had a feeling when he won the Republican nomination that this would happen. I did so much as time allowed to push for it to not be. As I went in to cast ballot #35 at my polling place, I just could feel it. I knew my county would go Red, even though my state would go Blue. So, I knew my efforts locally wouldn't do much to move the needle. I figured that'd be ok. I hoped that by supporting the get out the vote efforts that were needed in "battleground" states that maybe my intuition would be wrong. Now, I only hope that his original Democrat leanings will come through, and that we won't be as screwed as we all feel. I wish us all well. I hope for clarity for those in elected office. I hope they understand that they do not have a mandate to tear down good things that have been put in place. I also feel we need to push for the mid-term election cycle to truly reclaim the Senate, and maybe even find a way to control the House. Peace and love to us all. We may very well need it! Chris PS Oh, and Denise, thank you for your beautiful music. Keep rockin'!

    Hey Denise,

    It has been nearly a week, and I'm still feeling like a zombie. I actually had a feeling when he won the Republican nomination that this would happen. I did so much as time allowed to push for it to not be. As I went in to cast ballot #35 at my polling place, I just could feel it. I knew my county would go Red, even though my state would go Blue. So, I knew my efforts locally wouldn't do much to move the needle. I figured that'd be ok. I hoped that by supporting the get out the vote efforts that were needed in "battleground" states that maybe my intuition would be wrong.

    Now, I only hope that his original Democrat leanings will come through, and that we won't be as screwed as we all feel. I wish us all well. I hope for clarity for those in elected office. I hope they understand that they do not have a mandate to tear down good things that have been put in place.

    I also feel we need to push for the mid-term election cycle to truly reclaim the Senate, and maybe even find a way to control the House.

    Peace and love to us all. We may very well need it!

    Chris

    PS Oh, and Denise, thank you for your beautiful music. Keep rockin'!

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hi Chris. It is good to hear from you! I echo all of your hopes and fears. One good thing that I am observing right now is that a lot of good, open-hearted, forward-thinking, peace-loving people are paying attention, and are looking to the 2018 election cycle. Midterm elections are often overlooked by folks who don't pay a lot of attention to politics if no one is running for president. That won't be the case this time. Peace and love to us all indeed! Thanks for adding your voice to the conversation. We have to all remember that even in despair, we are not alone. PS, thank you so much for appreciating my music. It is so appreciated. I look forward to the time when I can play in Albany!

    Hi Chris. It is good to hear from you! I echo all of your hopes and fears. One good thing that I am observing right now is that a lot of good, open-hearted, forward-thinking, peace-loving people are paying attention, and are looking to the 2018 election cycle. Midterm elections are often overlooked by folks who don't pay a lot of attention to politics if no one is running for president. That won't be the case this time.
    Peace and love to us all indeed!
    Thanks for adding your voice to the conversation.
    We have to all remember that even in despair, we are not alone.
    PS, thank you so much for appreciating my music. It is so appreciated. I look forward to the time when I can play in Albany!

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