I used to think that envy was ugly. I thought it was something to be ashamed of. It used to hurt me, and make me feel inferior, but now, instead of seeing envy as a bad thing, I see it as a roadmap. I welcome it as a gift.
Envy is an internal laser pointer. It underlines our desires and our passion. It is a call to action, and it has been showing up for me a lot lately.
Ryan O’Neal, a songwriter who goes by the name Sleeping At Last, recently sent a newsletter saying that another one of his wonderful songs was placed in an episode of Grey’s Anatomy. He has had many songs placed in popular TV shows. As I read his newsletter, I felt happy for him, and yes, I also felt envious.
At the same time, my fabulous songwriter friend, Jennifer Haase, wrote about her intention to consistently pitch her songs for licensing opportunities. There it was again, that feeling of envy. I felt it, and then, I took action! By the time you read this, I will have begun…
For the next ninety days, beginning July first, I will be participating in a class geared toward helping songwriters find licensing opportunities. There are no guarantees, but I will be learning and taking action towards this end. Jennifer is doing it with me, and we will be cheering each other on!
My dream placement is in the show Parenthood. I can imagine seeing Sarah with boxes in her arms, moving into a new place, while “This House” plays in the background. Or maybe “Oldest Dream” will be featured in a scene with Amber and Ryan. Or, maybe (my great big huge giant fantasy…) I will be cast to play a scene recording “I Believe” at The Luncheonette! It could happen…
On a different note, another friend just got to go to songwriting camp with Shawn Colvin. I am not sure how to take action on that one. For now, I will just be thrilled for her!
Where does your envy roadmap lead?