The Gift of Envy

I used to think that envy was ugly.  I thought it was something to be ashamed of.  It used to hurt me, and make me feel inferior, but now, instead of seeing envy as a bad thing, I see it as a roadmap.  I welcome it as a gift.

Envy is an internal laser pointer.  It underlines our desires and our passion.  It is a call to action, and it has been showing up for me a lot lately. 

Ryan O’Neal, a songwriter who goes by the name Sleeping At Last, recently sent a newsletter saying that another one of his wonderful songs was placed in an episode of Grey’s Anatomy.  He has had many songs placed in popular TV shows.  As I read his newsletter, I felt happy for him, and yes, I also felt envious.

At the same time, my fabulous songwriter friend, Jennifer Haase, wrote about her intention to consistently pitch her songs for licensing opportunities.  There it was again, that feeling of envy.  I felt it, and then, I took action!  By the time you read this, I will have begun…

For the next ninety days, beginning July first, I will be participating in a class geared toward helping songwriters find licensing opportunities.  There are no guarantees, but I will be learning and taking action towards this end.  Jennifer is doing it with me, and we will be cheering each other on!

My dream placement is in the show Parenthood.  I can imagine seeing Sarah with boxes in her arms, moving into a new place, while “This House” plays in the background.  Or maybe “Oldest Dream” will be featured in a scene with Amber and Ryan.  Or, maybe (my great big huge giant fantasy…) I will be cast to play a scene recording “I Believe” at The Luncheonette!  It could happen…

On a different note, another friend just got to go to songwriting camp with Shawn Colvin.  I am not sure how to take action on that one.  For now, I will just be thrilled for her!

Where does your envy roadmap lead?


8 comments

  • houstonalle

    houstonalle

    Doing the no rain dance for you! Love the post…as always. Also, enjoying Sleeping at Last. I hope the songwriter licensing opps class goes well. It sound like a great idea. I would think your songs would be highly license worthy…they are so evocative!

    Doing the no rain dance for you! Love the post…as always. Also, enjoying Sleeping at Last. I hope the songwriter licensing opps class goes well. It sound like a great idea. I would think your songs would be highly license worthy…they are so evocative!

  • Denise

    Denise

    Thanks Alle! I think they are licensable too. I just need to learn how to get them into the right hands. I need someone I trust, who loves my work, to help me make the connections. I am working towards that. I love that you are a steady blog reader. It is appreciated! My best to you...

    Thanks Alle! I think they are licensable too. I just need to learn how to get them into the right hands. I need someone I trust, who loves my work, to help me make the connections. I am working towards that. I love that you are a steady blog reader. It is appreciated! My best to you...

  • harry

    harry

    thank you for reframing envy into something positive. i don't spend alot of time these days experiencing envy but when i do it can be quite distracting, disrupting and distancing. i even get a bit angry sometimes. but looking at envy as a positive roadmap is awesome. it was formerly known as a muddy dirt road with too many potholes heading straight into darkness. well, that's a skooch dramatic. but it was not a "happy place". the one other piece i need to add for me is to not let the roadmap take me too far away from gratitude for being content with what i already have and where i already am... thank you again for your enlightened giving.

    thank you for reframing envy into something positive. i don't spend alot of time these days experiencing envy but when i do it can be quite distracting, disrupting and distancing. i even get a bit angry sometimes. but looking at envy as a positive roadmap is awesome. it was formerly known as a muddy dirt road with too many potholes heading straight into darkness. well, that's a skooch dramatic. but it was not a "happy place". the one other piece i need to add for me is to not let the roadmap take me too far away from gratitude for being content with what i already have and where i already am... thank you again for your enlightened giving.

  • Denise

    Denise

    You are right Harry. Gratitude is the other piece. I have been transformed by focusing on gratitude. I have learned to be grateful for little every day things, like the smell of the new soap I found yesterday, and the tea that is for sale at the farmers' market, along with the more dramatic things. Envy still doesn't feel good to me, but it is a reliable teacher. Thank you for sharing your experience. You always have thoughtful things to add to the conversation.

    You are right Harry. Gratitude is the other piece. I have been transformed by focusing on gratitude. I have learned to be grateful for little every day things, like the smell of the new soap I found yesterday, and the tea that is for sale at the farmers' market, along with the more dramatic things.
    Envy still doesn't feel good to me, but it is a reliable teacher. Thank you for sharing your experience. You always have thoughtful things to add to the conversation.

  • Neal Heart

    Neal Heart

    This was a great blog Denise. Thank you for writing an interesting and an entertaining blog.

    This was a great blog Denise. Thank you for writing an interesting and an entertaining blog.

  • Denise

    Denise

    Thanks Neal. I appreciate you reading along!

    Thanks Neal. I appreciate you reading along!

  • Neal Heart

    Neal Heart

    Denise it was an pleasure for me to read your blog.

    Denise it was an pleasure for me to read your blog.

  • Denise

    Denise

    Thanks!

    Thanks!

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