The Cat Came Back

Have you ever been reunited with an old love? Did your heart fill up like it was transported back in time? Mine did. I felt teenaged and deeply in love with the music of Cat Stevens. Seeing him again was a joy I will treasure forever. 

As Cat wrote in one of his earliest songs, "the first cut is the deepest." For me, he made that cut in the summer of my thirteenth year. His music was the gift that came along with the early adolescent horrors of summer camp.  

When he turned his back on music, it felt like he turned his back on me. I grieved the loss like a death. My mom used to call him my friend, and although we had never met, he was, and I missed him dearly.
 
I recently wrote a song called old love. (You can watch my video of it here.) I wrote it while wondering what happens to love when it goes. Cat reminded me of the answer earlier this month, when he returned to Philadelphia after thirty-eight years away.
 
It doesn’t go anywhere! In time, it recedes, but all it takes is a sound, or a scent, or in this case a song, to bring it all rushing back with an intensity that feels like the breaking of time.
 
Whose songs will live in your heart forever?

 
 
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2 comments

  • harry d

    harry d maine

    i'm sad and i'm sad and i'm sad and i'm sad and i'm so so sad; i cry and i cry and i cry ... this line, from a song we both know, brings tears each time i hear it; reminding me how life spins on decisions. most of the pain i experience in my life is the result of not being able to let go of bad decisions ... regret or guilt or jealousy or... you know. that moment when the view of the planet changes dramatically. It is Time that has allowed, me in some cases, to see "bad" decisions as choices which allowed other wonderful events to unfold. But this song brings me back to tears, "the breaking of time", the moments that make the memories. the pain that brought the shame. the pleasures left behind. there are so many songs that have marked time for me. i close my eyes, recall a song, and the memory movie begins to play with the soundtrack... it's raining hard outside my window and down my face ... ooo baby baby it's a wild world

    i'm sad and i'm sad and i'm sad and i'm sad and i'm so so sad; i cry and i cry and i cry ... this line, from a song we both know, brings tears each time i hear it; reminding me how life spins on decisions. most of the pain i experience in my life is the result of not being able to let go of bad decisions ... regret or guilt or jealousy or... you know. that moment when the view of the planet changes dramatically.
    It is Time that has allowed, me in some cases, to see "bad" decisions as choices which allowed other wonderful events to unfold. But this song brings me back to tears, "the breaking of time", the moments that make the memories. the pain that brought the shame. the pleasures left behind.
    there are so many songs that have marked time for me. i close my eyes, recall a song, and the memory movie begins to play with the soundtrack...
    it's raining hard outside my window and down my face ... ooo baby baby it's a wild world

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hi Harry D, That song came out of such a deep overwhelming grief. I thought I would't survive it. It is amazing what time will do... Your words always move me. Thank you for sharing so openly here.

    Hi Harry D, That song came out of such a deep overwhelming grief. I thought I would't survive it. It is amazing what time will do... Your words always move me. Thank you for sharing so openly here.

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