Fear and Failure (my twin friends)

Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by this commitment of mine to live a creative life. Sometimes I miss the security of a steady paycheck. Sometimes I feel discouraged by the gatekeepers. Sometimes I am afraid that I will fail, and sometimes I do… 

I experienced a big failure this week.  A door that I wanted to walk through closed in my face. I lost a songwriting contest. But as the door swung shut, I got a good and unexpected look at what was behind it, and I realized that winning or losing was not a real reflection of my songwriting ability. 
 
Yes, it was a disappointment. It hurt my feelings, but this one just wasn’t mine for winning. Now, I have other doors to open, so with some disappointment, I move on to the next thing…
 
On July 20th, I will be opening for Steve Forbert. That feels like a great big open door!  I just mailed my signed contract to the promoter with gratitude and a smile. Satisfaction and hope are good companions for those pesky fears and failures. 
 
Coincidentally, two days after learning that I lost the contest, a stranger went out of his way to tell me how much he loved Boy Store, the song I had submitted. He made me smile! He highlighted for me that music, like all art, is subjective.  I just need to focus on finding the people I resonate with.

Every closed door points me in the right direction.

8 comments

  • Alle L'Eveille

    Alle L'Eveille Houston

    That is so true Denise. I always think things happen for a reason. Sometimes what we think we want doesn't meet our expectations if we get. Another door always opens when you stay committed to your goal.

    That is so true Denise. I always think things happen for a reason. Sometimes what we think we want doesn't meet our expectations if we get. Another door always opens when you stay committed to your goal.

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Thanks Alle! I am staying committed. Sometimes I give the losses too much power over my emotions. I have thin skin. But, that is also how I write the way I do. I am ready for a big win! Here's hoping... as I continue to work for it. Thanks Again...

    Thanks Alle! I am staying committed. Sometimes I give the losses too much power over my emotions. I have thin skin. But, that is also how I write the way I do. I am ready for a big win! Here's hoping... as I continue to work for it.
    Thanks Again...

  • Bryan Abes

    Bryan Abes Kennett square, PA

    Denise I'm so sorry to hear about your big disappointment. Rejection feels like a slap in the face or a pelt in the gut. I've experienced it many times in my life, and I mean many. I'm gonna tell you what my mom has told me in the past when I've had doors slam in my face. "For every door that closes, a nother one opens. I just know that other doors will open for you. I mean look how far in your career you've come already(: - Bryan

    Denise I'm so sorry to hear about your big disappointment. Rejection feels like a slap in the face or a pelt in the gut. I've experienced it many times in my life, and I mean many. I'm gonna tell you what my mom has told me in the past when I've had doors slam in my face. "For every door that closes, a nother one opens. I just know that other doors will open for you. I mean look how far in your career you've come already(:
    - Bryan

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    I agree with you and your mom Bryan, and I know that many more doors will open for both of us! My best to you always...

    I agree with you and your mom Bryan, and I know that many more doors will open for both of us!
    My best to you always...

  • harry

    harry maine

    i'm sad when i hear of your sadness and disappointment. it feels icky. As far as the twins go, fear and failure, i believe they should just step out of the way cuz Denise is comin on thru i believe the only failure is not "doing" becuz of fear. anything else is achieving. and my friend denise is massively achieving massive amounts of massivity, experiencivity, know-howcity, and gettin-er-done-city.... guitar teach, writing teach, concert put-er on-er, album maker, singer songwriter... i can't wait to see your paintings when you get around to that. you're amazing and continue to inspire me from afar.

    i'm sad when i hear of your sadness and disappointment. it feels icky. As far as the twins go, fear and failure, i believe they should just step out of the way cuz Denise is comin on thru i believe the only failure is not "doing" becuz of fear. anything else is achieving. and my friend denise is massively achieving massive amounts of massivity, experiencivity, know-howcity, and gettin-er-done-city.... guitar teach, writing teach, concert put-er on-er, album maker, singer songwriter... i can't wait to see your paintings when you get around to that. you're amazing and continue to inspire me from afar.

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Mr Harry David, you are so validating of me. It is appreciated and it feels good to see my accomplishments and struggles through your eyes. Thank you for seeing me. By the way, I see you too...

    Mr Harry David, you are so validating of me. It is appreciated and it feels good to see my accomplishments and struggles through your eyes. Thank you for seeing me. By the way, I see you too...

  • meryl joblin

    meryl joblin birchrunville

    Never be afraid to fail. Just keep on trying as it will give you the ability to become who you want be

    Never be afraid to fail. Just keep on trying as it will give you the ability to become who you want be

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Thanks Meryl. I agree. They only real failure would be to not keep moving forward. Having failures is good. Having successes is good too! Thanks for commenting.

    Thanks Meryl. I agree. They only real failure would be to not keep moving forward. Having failures is good. Having successes is good too! Thanks for commenting.

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