Diving into New York!

One brave July day, in the summer after first grade, I slowly climbed the steel-rung ladder to the platform of the high-dive.  Up until I started to climb, it had been just another day at Green Briar.  My mother sipped on cans of Tab and worked on her tan, Michele and her friends played ping-pong and jacks, and Myrtle announced through the loud speaker, “Delicious hot knishes are available at the snack bar.” But all I could hear as I reached the top of the ladder was the sound of fear pulsing in my ears.  

I stood there, and I stood there, and I stood there… It was higher than it looked from the ground! I could see all the way to Monument Road, where the big kids rode their bikes. I could see past the sunbathers to the locker room where the bees' nest was.  I could see everyone’s eyes on me. I felt like a stranded kitten in a tree.
 
As I walked on the board to the end, it moved gently up and down.  It was unexpected. I was afraid I might fall off before I got to the end.  Other kids eagerly climbed up behind me waiting their turn to jump, dive, or cannonball into the chlorinated public pool.  As they became restless, I froze.
 
I was afraid to jump in, and I was afraid to turn around and walk back to the ladder.  I stood there on the edge of that plank for what felt like forever. The lifeguard offered to rescue me, and still I stood frozen.  Finally, I decided that jumping was the best of my choices, so I held my nose and jumped. 
 
I remember falling through the air, and hitting the water.  I remember seeing the light of the sun above me as my arms and legs propelled me to the surface. When it was over, I felt proud of myself, and realized that it was actually kind of fun.  Before long, I was just another kid scrambling up the ladder for my turn. 
 
I have been wanting to play in New York like I wanted to jump off of that high dive. I have been standing at the edge of the board for a while now.  My initial splash into this pool is on my calendar, and I am excitedly looking forward to jumping in! 
 
If you are a New Yorker, please join me at PIANOS for an evening of songwriters in the round on Sunday June 15th

Details for all appearances are on my website.
 
What pool do you want to jump into?

8 comments

  • Bryan Abes

    Bryan Abes Kennett, Pennsylvania

    Hey Denise, the unfolding(: I can relate to your Experiance at the public swimming pool. I once had an Experiance in Orlando Florida at a public swimming pool. There was this biiiig water slide. I kept going up the stairs to the slide and I kept chickening out. Finally I slid down and I was proud of myself. From then on, the slide was a piece'a cake. Anyway, I have been wanting to move out of my parents' house and start a life of my own. I've been "standing at the edge of the diving board" over this for a few years now. However, my " splash into that pool" won't be until this rejection cycle breaks and I get a decent job. Having said that, wish me luck. I wish you lotsa luck performing in NY, and I'm very happy for ya! - Bryan

    Hey Denise, the unfolding(:
    I can relate to your Experiance at the public swimming pool. I once had an Experiance in Orlando Florida at a public swimming pool. There was this biiiig water slide. I kept going up the stairs to the slide and I kept chickening out. Finally I slid down and I was proud of myself. From then on, the slide was a piece'a cake. Anyway, I have been wanting to move out of my parents' house and start a life of my own. I've been "standing at the edge of the diving board" over this for a few years now. However, my " splash into that pool" won't be until this rejection cycle breaks and I get a decent job. Having said that, wish me luck. I wish you lotsa luck performing in NY, and I'm very happy for ya!
    - Bryan

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Hi Bryan, Thanks for your comment. Yes, your water slide experience is the same thing. Sometimes we just have to take a deep breath and do it. I wish you the best in finding a good job and moving out. That is a big step, and I know you will do it. I have seen you when you put your mind to something. You are unstoppable. It is good that you have a place to be in the meantime. I wish you all good things. My best to you...

    Hi Bryan, Thanks for your comment. Yes, your water slide experience is the same thing. Sometimes we just have to take a deep breath and do it. I wish you the best in finding a good job and moving out. That is a big step, and I know you will do it. I have seen you when you put your mind to something. You are unstoppable. It is good that you have a place to be in the meantime. I wish you all good things. My best to you...

  • harry

    harry maine

    you sooo taped into your kid for some of this writing; especially the view from the high dive. i had the same experience almost exactly. your prose is so easy to chew on. a reese cup. a glass of milk filled with oreo cookies. peanut butter on almost anything. your words paint the experience beautifully without verbosity. i felt the emotions physically as i read. thank you for bringing me back there. and thank you for inspiring me to jump in too. into so many pools, i keep throwing myself. just this year so far there is a photography book filled with shots i have been taking of winter in belfast. i have 8 videos on you tube. what! i have done my first concert and i didnt have a heart attack; although at times it felt like the high dive fear. i am in this Leaky Boot band and we have an album in the mixing phase. and i sold a drawing. all this cuz i watched you do it and then i left the platform and headed for the pool

    you sooo taped into your kid for some of this writing; especially the view from the high dive. i had the same experience almost exactly. your prose is so easy to chew on. a reese cup. a glass of milk filled with oreo cookies. peanut butter on almost anything. your words paint the experience beautifully without verbosity. i felt the emotions physically as i read. thank you for bringing me back there. and thank you for inspiring me to jump in too. into so many pools, i keep throwing myself. just this year so far there is a photography book filled with shots i have been taking of winter in belfast. i have 8 videos on you tube. what! i have done my first concert and i didnt have a heart attack; although at times it felt like the high dive fear. i am in this Leaky Boot band and we have an album in the mixing phase. and i sold a drawing. all this cuz i watched you do it and then i left the platform and headed for the pool

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Wow, David, thank you! Thank you for enjoying my writing, and telling me about it. Thank you for jumping into your own pools. You inspire me right back. So appreciated...

    Wow, David, thank you! Thank you for enjoying my writing, and telling me about it. Thank you for jumping into your own pools. You inspire me right back. So appreciated...

  • alisa

    alisa

    Hi Denise! Belated comment here.... I just wanted to say that it is wonderful and amazing not only how inspiring your own experience is, but how very inspiring you are to others (myself included!). YOU ROCK, WOMAN!!! May you always be divinely inspired, and share it so generously with the rest of us.... xox

    Hi Denise! Belated comment here.... I just wanted to say that it is wonderful and amazing not only how inspiring your own experience is, but how very inspiring you are to others (myself included!). YOU ROCK, WOMAN!!! May you always be divinely inspired, and share it so generously with the rest of us.... xox

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Thank you Alisa! You just made me smile a big smile. Thank you for your kind words. It feels good to know that I am being cheered on, and helping others in some way. Thanks for your support. It is more appreciated than you know...

    Thank you Alisa! You just made me smile a big smile. Thank you for your kind words. It feels good to know that I am being cheered on, and helping others in some way. Thanks for your support. It is more appreciated than you know...

  • Michael Goldfuss

    Michael Goldfuss Port St. Lucie, Florida

    Dear Denise~ I haven't written to you in ages, but I wanted to express the goose bump reaction I am fortunate enough to feel when I listen to your songs. I'm not sure what song you plan on opening with in "The Big Apple", but "Here Right Now", may fit the bill. It's a song that speaks of your wondrous musical journey and makes for an instant smile. "This House", (May friendship bloom and anger ease, D to Em)..is the emotion of love in a single voicing. "The End or the Start", again...perfect melody and brilliantly sung. The "Unfinished Song"...is glowingly finished. New York may seem like a high dive, but it only seems that way. Your voice, songs and beautiful appearance, along with your keen attention to detail, professionalism and soaring spirit for what you do, will leave New Yorkers scratching their heads and asking,"Where's this girl been hiding?" Denise, you're a spectacularly gifted musician and you WILL bring the house down. Just pinch your nose and jump. Much love, Michael~

    Dear Denise~
    I haven't written to you in ages, but I wanted to express the goose bump reaction I am fortunate enough to feel when I listen to your songs. I'm not sure what song you plan on opening with in "The Big Apple", but "Here Right Now", may fit the bill. It's a song that speaks of your wondrous musical journey and makes for an instant smile. "This House", (May friendship bloom and anger ease, D to Em)..is the emotion of love in a single voicing. "The End or the Start", again...perfect melody and brilliantly sung. The "Unfinished Song"...is glowingly finished. New York may seem like a high dive, but it only seems that way. Your voice, songs and beautiful appearance, along with your keen attention to detail, professionalism and soaring spirit for what you do, will leave New Yorkers scratching their heads and asking,"Where's this girl been hiding?" Denise, you're a spectacularly gifted musician and you WILL bring the house down. Just pinch your nose and jump. Much love, Michael~

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Michael, that was a beautiful tribute, and it felt good to read. Thank you from my heart for listening so closely, and for valuing what I do. It is so appreciated. Thanks for being in my corner...

    Michael, that was a beautiful tribute, and it felt good to read. Thank you from my heart for listening so closely, and for valuing what I do. It is so appreciated. Thanks for being in my corner...

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