The Tin Angel (a magical night!)

It was a potential career altering opportunity, and I didn’t want to fail. This show needed to be as perfect as I could make it. I agonized over the set list, arranged and rearranged the song order, and rehearsed and rehearsed and rehearsed.
 
Playing at the Philadelphia Folk Festival was finally within reach.  This Tin Angel show was an audition.  It was the closest I had ever come to this long-held dream gig, and I needed to show them my very best work.
 
Somewhere along the way, as momentum built and more and more tickets sold, I realized that I had already won the prize.  Yes! I want to be booked to play at the festival this year, but even if I don’t, this Tin Angel gig was a privilege, an honor, and an outrageous amount of fun!
 
Being in the dressing room with the waist high, funky, shelf-like bed, and the tea lights around the mirror, reminded me that I had hung out there with Rosanne Cash years ago.  That memory made it more significant to me that I was in there now, getting ready for my own show!  It was validating of the hard work I have been consistently doing to build a sustainable creative life for myself.
 
I smiled as I signed the dressing room wall, adding my name to the legions of talented songwriters that came before me.  This show felt like playing dress-up, and realizing that the big-girl clothes finally fit me.  I was at home and at ease, and I loved every second of it. 
 
I don’t know what will come of the seeds I planted that night, but I felt proud of my songs, my performance, and the crowd of people who showed up for me. I felt deeply honored and grateful! Thank you to everyone who helped make this a night I will always remember…   

(In the dressing room, I did some primping – put on my contact lenses, added some lipstick, and put my hair up (then down, then up, then down…) and then I saw it!  On the mirror, someone had written, “You’re beautiful! Go get ‘em!”  It made me smile a big smile, and I took this photo to capture the spirit.)
 
(Photo by Daniel Endy)

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8 comments

  • Jeanenne

    Jeanenne Tin Angel

    The show was great and I loved seeing you again! I think you really capture the spirit of the folk show and that's what this was all about. Your words, as always, so moving and personal.. Your ability to take what's raw and softly share your life is what I love about you. I've been singing along to your cd in my car and smiling because your dream is coming true and I'm so happy for you it reminds me that mine will someday too. Congrats and mazel tov :-)

    The show was great and I loved seeing you again! I think you really capture the spirit of the folk show and that's what this was all about. Your words, as always, so moving and personal.. Your ability to take what's raw and softly share your life is what I love about you. I've been singing along to your cd in my car and smiling because your dream is coming true and I'm so happy for you it reminds me that mine will someday too. Congrats and mazel tov :-)

  • Bryan Abes

    Bryan Abes Kennett square PA

    Oh wow! I loved the video of you. I've heard that song on your website before. I think it's really cute, and I loved your little back up singer; that was hilarious! I hope the seed you planted that night becomes a tree of career boosting opportunities for you. You looked great in all the pictures! Best wishes, Bryan

    Oh wow! I loved the video of you. I've heard that song on your website before. I think it's really cute, and I loved your little back up singer; that was hilarious! I hope the seed you planted that night becomes a tree of career boosting opportunities for you. You looked great in all the pictures!
    Best wishes,
    Bryan

  • Denise

    Denise

    Jeanenne, thank you! Thank you for coming to the show, and for appreciating what I do. Your words moved me, and reinforced that I am on the right track. So appreciated. Thanks for being in my corner! I liked hearing too that you have a dream, and that you believe in it coming true. I am learning that our thoughts have great power...

    Jeanenne, thank you! Thank you for coming to the show, and for appreciating what I do. Your words moved me, and reinforced that I am on the right track. So appreciated. Thanks for being in my corner! I liked hearing too that you have a dream, and that you believe in it coming true. I am learning that our thoughts have great power...

  • Denise

    Denise

    Hi Bryan! I will tell Lorelai that she has a fan. Both she and her sister love to sing. Thanks for your kind words and best wishes. Much appreciated...

    Hi Bryan! I will tell Lorelai that she has a fan. Both she and her sister love to sing. Thanks for your kind words and best wishes. Much appreciated...

  • harry

    harry maine

    hi D. this is the comment that made me cry when i read your story... "This show felt like playing dress up, and realizing that the big-girl clothes finally fit me." wow. i totally get that. what a moment that must have been for you. To be there, where you had witnessed others you have admired, dreamed about playing there someday, doing what you LOVE to do, singing YOUR songs. Right now i feel the fear in me just writing about it. You remain my hero in this journey of facing fears and doing what we really want to do. Congratulations on looking in the mirror and loving the person you saw saying, "you are beautiful. go get 'em."

    hi D. this is the comment that made me cry when i read your story... "This show felt like playing dress up, and realizing that the big-girl clothes finally fit me." wow. i totally get that. what a moment that must have been for you. To be there, where you had witnessed others you have admired, dreamed about playing there someday, doing what you LOVE to do, singing YOUR songs. Right now i feel the fear in me just writing about it. You remain my hero in this journey of facing fears and doing what we really want to do. Congratulations on looking in the mirror and loving the person you saw saying, "you are beautiful. go get 'em."

  • Denise

    Denise

    Hi Harry, You are always so kind in your comments and I love that you feel my blog so deeply. That was a powerful moment. I don't know where this path will intimately lead me, probably through some magic and some disappointment, but I know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. The Tin Angel show felt deeply validating. I look forward to a time when you can be at a show. Keep following your dream too. You are a gifted songwriter, filled with passion, empathy and humor.

    Hi Harry, You are always so kind in your comments and I love that you feel my blog so deeply. That was a powerful moment. I don't know where this path will intimately lead me, probably through some magic and some disappointment, but I know that I am doing what I am supposed to be doing. The Tin Angel show felt deeply validating. I look forward to a time when you can be at a show. Keep following your dream too. You are a gifted songwriter, filled with passion, empathy and humor.

  • Alle L'Eveille

    Alle L'Eveille Houston

    So happy for you, Denise!

    So happy for you, Denise!

  • Denise Moser

    Denise Moser

    Thanks Alle!

    Thanks Alle!

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