I am doing my best to transform my life in a way that honors my most authentic self. I feel alive, useful, and hopeful when I succeed at doing that. Sometimes I can’t find my way there, because I am stuck in the business of survival.
The process isn’t always graceful, and the road is often obscured. It winds and doubles back. I am doing my best to feel and trust my internal GPS. There are powerful landmarks on this road. One of them was my gig with John Gorka.
It has taken a couple of weeks to be ready to talk about it. I had a bit of an emotional setback after the show, which is part of how I am put together. Although there are a couple of things I would do differently, like not forgetting to tell people about my custom songwriting business, overall, it was a fabulous night. I am profoundly grateful for the experience, and for the folks who came out to share the night with me.
My social skills get wonky when things are deeply important to me, so I didn’t talk with John as much as I would have liked, but he was kind, warm, and did me the honor of listening to my set. He had nice things to say, especially about the song “I Believe.”
One of the lines in “I Believe” is, “I believe in wishing on a song.” My new song is feeling like another landmark on that road I was telling you about. I am wishing on it, and working on getting it out into the world in the best shape that I can. My goal as a songwriter is to touch your heart by revealing my own. I believe this song does that.
The song, “The Long Goodbye,” was inspired by my time as a companion for a woman I love very much, who is living with Alzheimer’s Disease. The song was well received at the show, and I was overwhelmed to learn how many people have been touched by this thief of a disease.
I am doing some preproduction work for the song now, and look forward to sharing it with you.
What makes you feel like your truest self?